Blood Work Results Freakout

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I got my blood work results back this week and all tests came back normal. So why was I so upset to hear the news?

The recent panels show nothing is being naughty in my blood cells and results show my organs are all comfy in here. So why no party hats? Although, in no way do I want another chronic condition whatsoever (seriously), feeling bad and having no answers is a horribly frustrating experience! My tests showed negative for problems, but I am still POSITIVE for being sick.

I have felt these “new” symptoms for over a year now. Negative blood work results don’t stop the symptoms, and it drives me crazy that there is no name, or treatment, or plan, or PROOF… which I feel are owed to my body.

Waiting for a very long time for the proper diagnosis is something I’m not a foreigner to, unfortunately. Maybe that is why this is bringing up such strong emotions like: AAAHHHH!!! and: GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! Been here, done this, bought the t-shirt, a poster, a hat, and a handmade trinket from a hippie chick on the sidewalk (aahhh, I miss concerts).

Not sure where to go from here… The last 10 years, then ESPECIALLY the last 3, now adding on this past year of this new sickie stuff, my feeling about the medical world in general is a Negative Result. Rate your pain 1-10? How about, “rate your trust in my ability to treat you?”

Giving it up to the Great Healer. To the only One who truly knows how I’m really feeling right now, and who I CAN trust with tomorrow.

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“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”  Genesis 28:15

Jesus said, “Now this is your time of grief, but when I see you again you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.” John 16:22

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