“Waiting for my Real Life to Begin”

Woke up with this song weighing heavy on my heart and in my head. Just because I cannot listen doesn’t keep music from playing inside of me. If you are like me and have trouble listening to music, the video includes the lyrics.

The second verse: “When I awoke today suddenly nothing happened.
But in my dreams I slew the DRAGON” plays into living with chronic illness and life now from a bed. But just as Colin Hay’s “love” keeps telling him to let the sun shine in and keeps reminding him there is already a plan; this is the same knowledge I have that God has a plan for me also. Not just in the future, but right now… I’m living it. My real life has already begun- even when it’s hard to feel it.

Sometimes we keep waiting for everything good to start up, and our purpose is right there in front of us. God bless you.

About abodyofhope

I do not know why it is that we must wade through tragic circumstances to find truth. We nearly drown! But under the water, there are pearls. I hope in writing this blog, more will come to the surface. Over the past 15 years living with chronic pain, patient advocacy has had a powerful effect on my life through meeting so many remarkable teens, women and men: SURVIVORS. These individuals are HOPE personified. I wish to honor them in the same spirit they have encouraged me to press on. Eight years ago, I became bed-bound from a variety of secondary chronic illnesses. A procedure meant to help the pain condition I had been managing for several years- went bust #BIGTIME. Over the years, my entire life has changed. I have changed, but I am still striving to live my best life possible. Along with sharing inspiring pieces about spiritual wellness and finding quality of life inside of ongoing illness, I also share health research, awareness information, poetry, memes, art, and this blog is also an attempt to put my own pieces back together. Welcome to A Body of Hope, and thank you for visiting. [Complex Regional Pain Syndrome/ RSD, Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), Dysautonomia, Chronic Intractable Migraine, Cluster headache, Trigeminal Neuralgia, Occipital Neuralgia, Hypersensitivity to Sound & Light, Fibro, CFS/ME, Cerebrospinal Fluid Imbalance......blah, blah, blah] >>> P.S. My headgear is protective for pain. I just rock it hard ;)

Posted on September 12, 2014, in Christian, Chronic Illness, Colin Hay, Hope, Inspiration, Music, Music Video, Purpose, Video and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. At then end when you say,

    “we keep waiting for everything good to start up, and our purpose is right there in front of us. God bless you.”

    I am curious of what you mean by purpose?

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  2. Thank you Jackson. I really appreciate your comment!
    What I meant was to try to find new purpose when life throws you a curve ball. Making lemonade out of really rotten lemons, basically. Sometimes after everything has fallen apart, so many individuals I have encountered over the years realize a new-found path or life passion that allows them to utilize skills and gifts they weren’t able to in their previously chosen careers.
    Rebuilding life after disaster can feel impossible at times. You look for the good where you can. Did I answer your question?


    • You abolsutely answered my question! Thank you for responding back! This is great and it something I really needed to hear. I do feel let along, building life morals and standards and if it feels impossible, but I can do it!

      I am also curious of what you think happens this Earth Life?

      You can message me at my e-mail, elderjacksontait@gmail.com

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  3. Jackson,
    I’m excited by your dedication to a path of seeking truth and wisdom in your life. I agree that it’s a difficult and challenging journey.
    There was a time I was just trying to “do good” and always felt I was falling short- not ever hitting the mark. Not feeling fulfilled, you know? Kindness, of course. Compassion, yes. But still, what is “good?”
    Not in a churchy way, but just in a personal way, I started going into Bible verses to look for “what is good?” “what does it say on this/that?” and it really helps as a guideline for me personally.
    It seems like you are a seeker of wisdom, so I’m sharing this with you.

    Thanks for the good conversation 🙂 I hope you are having a good weekend.


    • Thank you so much for taking the time to respond back to this, and I feel awful that I have not responded earlier to you!

      I love having a question or questions, then going and reading the scriptures and being able to find an answer, and depending on the time it is through the actual text of the scriptures but most of the time it is the feeling of the holy ghost that comforts me and leads me to an answer.

      I would love to be able to continue this conversation (despite being extremely late to respond), over e-mail! I know that I posted my e-mail above, and I can understand if you wouldn’t want to , but I would love to be able to do so.

      Have you ever asked yourself if we had prophets that spoke to us back then, wouldn’t it make sense to prophets to speak to us now?

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      • Hi Jackson, Happy New Year!
        I hope you enjoyed your Christmas and had some time with your loved ones as well as time to worship this season.
        I feel the same about looking at the scriptures and finding different answers each time. I don’t know if you read my last post about fear, but writing helps me process the Holy Spirit’s voice, just as discussion with others might help others.
        I was thinking about your question about prophets… a prophet is defined as an inspired teacher of the will of God, touched by the supernatural hand of God.
        And even today, there are ministers who are considered by their congregations to be prophets. That seems to be more of a denominational thing…but all ministers and preachers are sort of modern day prophets, don’t you think?


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