The Liar Inside

Portrait by Hypnotic Teapot, Etsy

~The Liar Inside~

There is this voice. It whispers. (It screams.)

It tells you that you have fallen too far.

There is no returning from these hits.

It tells you that someone else would have handled this path better.

Braver. Tougher. Smarter.

Someone else would not have lost so much. Someone else would not have allowed themselves to fall…this far. 

She tells you that you are a burden. A vampire.

Selfish. Helpless. Unworthy.

She tells you that if you disappeared…no one would grieve for you. 

She has a voice and she has eyes. She shows you how others might see you: Pathetic. Weak. Alone. 

This voice is a liar. 

She lives in the home of everyone. 

She sneaks in through the window of your mother and father. 

She sings you hateful songs about others. She sings you hurtful songs about yourself. 

Satan is an angel. Nickname: “the great deceiver.” 

Silence her deception with love, service, worship, gratitude.

Silence her deception with truth:

You are loved.

You are strong.

You are worthy.

You are made in the image of God.

You are SO unbelievably beautiful! 

You can face this day fiercely and boldly!

And you are not alone. 

~a Body of Hope

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Fire Brick Road: poem

Yellow Brick Road | by Artist Andrea

~Fire Brick Road~

Down this yellow brick road of fire and pain

There are things that you’ll learn and there’s knowledge you’ll gain.

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You learn people prefer when you’re funny instead

Of telling the truth about how bad things get.

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You’ll figure it out that folks get annoyed

When you tell them you’re hurting when they’re feeling joy.

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If someone asks about your health facts,

You must pair each truth with a blessing you have.

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Otherwise, they will think that you are pathetic,

Even though they may really seem sympathetic.

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Make sure to be cautious about each complaint,

You’re “sick” now so people expect you to act like a saint!

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A bit more advice as you walk the path:

You’ll subtract a few friends, so learn some quick math.

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You’re just not fun like they remember,

But hang on to the ones who will love you forever.

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If you are grateful, then you will do better

The things that are negative really can fester.

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If someone else tries to meet a need,

It’s best to say “thanks!” and learn to receive.

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This yellow brick road of fire and ice

Has more stuff like: Doctors, and money, and guilt… OH MY!

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But on this road you aren’t alone

God’s with you, and others who limp it in toe.

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So when you are ready just reach on out,

Someone will be here; there’s always traffic on this route.

-by A Body of Hope

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Yellow Brick Road | by Artist Andrea

Thank you to Artist Andrea for allowing her awesome Yellow Brick Road painting to be featured. Please go buy one of her unique original pieces from Etsy. Many of her paintings have the spirit of Frida Kahlo. Check them out!

Remembering When: poem

Don’t Touch | Zazzle/MixyPixie

~Remembering When~

I Think About The Time When My
Days Were Mine to Call,
I Didn’t Have To Think About
Meds or Charging At ALL!!!

I Used To LOVE Hugs And being Touched
You See- I Grew Up That Way-
But NOW When People Come Near Me
I Want To Shy Away

I Used To Be The Life Of The Party
Never Sitting Still For A Moment
NOW I’m A Stranger Even In My Own Body
And I Can’t Even Remember How I Got In It!

Of Course I Am Happy To Be Alive
I Still Have So Much To Give
I Just Want A Life That Doesn’t Hurt So Much
Just To Wake Up And Live

-written by Kelly Lynn Edholm

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Guest Contributor, Kelly Lynn has been surviving Complex Regional Pain Syndrome/RSD since 2007 along with other health challenges. She is a mother, a grandmother, an artist, teacher to the disabled, and places her faith in God first in her life. The “charging” she is referring to is her Spinal Cord Implant which is meant to help reduce pain. Thank you so much Kelly for expressing so clearly what many of us feel. 

This is the last of the Nervember Series. Visit Categories to see all of the RSD/CRPS Awareness posts from this past month.